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| English | 2025-07-23 | In this dream journal, I want to chronologically record my dreams and the lessons I might have learned from them. |
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- On my old iPod, iPhone, and Samsung phone, there might be dream documentations in the Notes app. In my Samsung, they are in the private space.
Entries
12.08.25
- Ich habe jemanden im Schlaf Schmock genannt - diese Person hat mir dann all meine guten Eigenschaften genannt und klar gemacht, dass ich mit dem infantilen Vokabular mich unglaubwürdig mache.
- then there was a dream where i was captured or at least a mob guy was keeping me in custody. There was this injury (toe reference) which needes tp be cured but i fled from doing so
09.08.24
"Someone who looks like me, hacking me"
- Dream:
- I was in a dark room. It felt like I was in my childhood bedroom in Michelbach (at night). I was sitting at my desk (to the left of the windows where both closets used to be, and still are). I was looking at my screen and noticed that my mouse was moving on its own. I was not in a calm analytical mode but was strongly unsettled about what was happening. To prove this to myself, I moved the mouse during boot and saw something choose the boot option (dual boot, represented by two large tiles) automatically. I showed this to others, and I suddenly saw a person (like turning on the camera and seeing who is there). The person was me, but it felt foreign. By careful observation, I noticed that this person was wearing my red-black checked shirt, which I rarely wear. Then, it wore a shirt from an old profile picture from Schw. Hall. I realized that this changing image must be AI.
- My thoughts, context, and lesson:
- In two aspects, this is interesting. A quick fact first. On the day I had this dream, I accidentally deleted my AI-art folder. I tried to find it with several tools, initially thinking my hard drive was corrupted. After analyzing with two tools, it was not. I do not exclude that it could have happened automatically, but this is just an interesting side fact. My subconscious could have picked up on this.
Now, for the actual interpretation. I think that this dream wanted to show me that I reacted in two ways, and I want to be aware of both. When I noticed something was wrong, I first tried to "point a finger at it" and show others that something was amiss. This is how I would have reacted if my parents (who were also in the dream, but vaguely) were there. Instead, when I looked at it in my usual analytical way (as later in the dream when I realized it was something AI-generated), I didn't suffer and knew what was happening. In connection with the dream below, "Escaping a slow, known kidnapper," I believe this "dumb" attitude comes from video games.
This makes sense! Thinking back to my school days, I gamed too much and had bad grades, suffered a lot, etc. During my studies, I reduced it significantly and focused on something academic. It was great. After graduation, I played Lost Ark for three-quarters of a year, so I was heavily addicted more than ever. When I started my job, I was mentally back at very basic things. Almost embarrassing. Now that I game less, I feel smarter again.
This does not only apply to informatics. In gaming mode, I am someone who behaves as I please. More on this under Ich.
"Escaping a slow, known kidnapper"
- Dream:
- I was in the middle of a house (no windows) and wandered around. The corridors were narrow, and when I went through a door, I passed by a person wearing a sanitation suit (I associated it with that). Suddenly, I was in an L-shaped room, and there was a very slow, dim-witted man (dim-witted because he behaved almost like an ogre). Behind him on the floor, I saw the person I had seen earlier, tied up. I knew that if the man got me, I would end up the same. On a multi-level shelf to my right, I reached for a marble and something thin and threw it in front of him on the floor. It did not help. Then, I noticed how slow and dim-witted this guy seemed and used the "hey, look over there!" trick and ran panicked through the maze. Then, I noticed cars (=road) and more light. I went that way and ended up outside. I was soon in a pedestrian zone. There were older people and a younger person; I felt like I had barged into a city tour. I apologized and explained that I had a good reason for the interruption. I asked where I was, and I got a silly answer that I should look at the "Lettish roofs"?
- My thoughts, context, and lesson:
- I can guess who the sanitation person is. I find the explanation more logical that the slow, bad person could stand for an Elden Ring boss because I played Elden Ring with him the evening before. The wandering around could be related to the fact that I went completely different ways with him and he seemed to wander around (for me, at least, because I already knew everything).
The far more logical explanation is that the kidnapper is a metaphor for a video game addiction. This explains why the other person seemed to be disabled (=unable). My thoughts on this topic were also that gaming puts me in a mental state where I seem less capable. The maze symbolizes the unknown path to escaping this addiction. When I told ordinary people about this on the street, they did not take me seriously. This reflects the feeling that I am not understood by others who do not have this problem (hence the stupid remark). This approach explains every aspect of the dream.